Thinking is something that comes naturally for most people. We can't help but think, leaving no question unanswered. Like right now, I'm thinking about what I want to say next, and it's frustrating for me because I have no idea where this post is going. I feel like thinking can go two separate ways; focused and unfocused. Personally, I'm more of an unfocused thinker, not that that's a bad thing. I start thinking about one topic, and I just hop from topic to topic eventually tying them together. There's so much that I don't know, and I can't help but stay up all night pondering over the unknown.
Okay, I ran out of things to talk about on the subject of thinking, so let's move on. Risk-taking. Now, I could go on and on about the importance of taking risks, or I could just paraphrase the paper I just wrote on it, adding a few things in every once in a while. There's this quote about risk taking by Kurt Vonnegut that I thoroughly enjoy. "We have to continually be jumping off cliffs, and developing our wings on the way down." I'll be honest, I'm an adrenaline junkie, but I really hate that term. I take risks so I can take every possible opportunity, the adrenaline rush is just a bonus.
Now, for the easy part. My weaknesses. I have far too many to list unfortunately. But if I was to list them, I would get unbelievably bored, lose my train of thought, and talk about Keeping Up With The Kardashians, or something as equally intriguing. On that note though, I really do love that show.
Back on topic. My biggest weakness by far is caring. I know that's a horrible weakness to have but I don't have time to care. I respect people and I'm kind to those around me, but I could care less about their problems or feelings. I'm not going to change the way I do something just to please someone else. Like if someone I know is crying, I'll ask if they're okay (even though I don't care all that much if they are because crying bothers me) because that's what I'm supposed to do. I don't think that anyone is actually nice, without a reason behind it. There's always an ulterior motive. When you're kind to someone, you do it because you want people to like you, so you can feel better about yourself. Since I couldn't possibly care any less about people liking me, and I feel perfectly fine about myself, I don't see the point in being a caring individual.
Another major weakness for me is balance. As a high school student that answer is expected on some level. I'm constantly trying to balance school, my social life, school activities and clubs, and family. I'd probably be more balanced if I procrastinated less. But sometimes I just need a day to watch a season or two on Netflix. It's good for my mental/emotional health. I'm really bad at prioritizing. I don't want to put anything before anything else. And I'm a perfectionist, so everything needs to be perfect. Which just adds more stress. Okay well that all I really have to say so.
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